In No Friend Zone, I discussed my lack of IRL friends that share the same interest as I in anime and K-drama. I feel that I need to revisit and provide more insight into this situation and more candor. I mentioned that I did not know any one in my community that watched anime growing up. This was not helped as I was not a consumer of televised media as a child as a result of the parenting philosophy of my progenitors. This led to being a bookworm. There were many times that I was called a “nerd” and when I was a child, being a nerd wasn’t cool or trendy.
All that combined meant I was not very socially interactive. I could not talk with the other children about the shows they watched unless it had been on PBS or the news. No one else read anything outside of the required reading and the fact that I read because I wanted to was really weird to my peers. Don’t read this to and think that I was completely isolated. I wasn’t, I had my built-in friends; you know the ones you really don’t have a choice in and I actually made friends. Or as some of my current friends will attest, they made themselves my friend. As I grew older, I also did not make many female friends. I did not really notice this until I became an adult. I only recall two females in my homeroom and I’m sure they were more. But I remember the males; not all, the ones I interacted with. This shows me that I didn’t talk to an of the females in my homeroom on a consistent basis; if at all.
I’m no longer friends with the males for the most part because there are social mores at play. I’ve got two good male friends, one who does share my interests and the other whose idea of anime probably leans towards the hentai area. So that brings us back to today, my social awkwardness makes it harder for me to communicate with others; especially females. In particular at anime conventions where I feel it may be the most likely place to find a friend similar to myself. The deeper issue is I really have a hard time communicating with females. It was always much easier and still is for me to interact with males when it comes to my interest. The feeling of judgment or like I’m being compared to themselves is not there. I don’t feel that I’m being measured and I feel that way with females.
I would like to have a female friend close to my age with a similar background and similar tastes. But the truth is, I really don’t know how to make a friend.
I have been very negligent with my blog. The only excuse that I have is adulthood has been really kicking my behind. Being a wife, mother, and working two jobs does not exactly lend itself to blogging consistently. I was able to blog consistently when I first started because I would blog at a job that had that allowed me a lot of free time. I’ve now gotten a job that is usually very busy and my internet pursuits are laid by the wayside. However, there have been some positive recent changes that may let me start back blogging. But the question is should I start where I left off or dissolve my blog?
I don’t want to close my blog because for a couple of years, I was pretty steady in my posting. My anime watching has decreased but not by much. I still watch about three to five shows at a time. I have added K-drama into the mix but I have not decided if I were to keep my blog; would I add posts about K-drama. The conundrum I’m facing regarding keeping the blog open is that I feel obliged to have regular posting. And the way my life has become lately, I don’t feel that I can commit to regular posting.
Clearly, there are people that still read the blog as I still get comments on my post regarding Ergo Proxy. That post has turned out to be one of my most popular posts and it was written almost four years ago. However, if people peruse my blog further, they would find that there has not been much activity or it has been sporadic in the last two years. The fact that I have kept this blog as long as I have is an accomplishment in itself. I did not expect to still have it activated this long. It would be bittersweet to end it.
I love Japanese animation and I have a cursory knowledge of samurai and Japanese vending machines. Periodically, I read Japanese news to kind of get a feel of what is going on in Japan. But can I actually live there? The tiny apartments, the earthquakes, the language, racial, and cultural barrier. Am I brave enough to overcome those challenges? I wouldn’t be going alone. My husband and our spawn would be along for the ride. That adds even more to it. I know I can do it on my own but what about my husband and our small one who doesn’t really care for new places or people? It has been a fleeting dream of mines to live in Japan. To live somewhere completely different than where I am from and live. To be an obvious outsider, a foreigner, no knowledge of the language, and very little understanding of the nuances in Japanese culture. I would have to do much more research than my superficial forays into the “weird” parts of Japan and my casual reads of Japanese news. I would really need to try to learn as much about the culture as possible before making a decision to live there for a couple of years.
Would I be able to adapt to the culture? I wouldn’t be alone so that might make it easier. It leads to me to wonder what do I really know about Japan?
It took me
three years to finish Jormungand. Technically, two and a half but I did it. I finished the show about the boy soldier. And the ending was disappointing. I finally found the time to finish the series and I was letdown. There was no reason for there to be a second season because it was a waste of time.
I enjoyed the first season but I had much difficulty getting through the second season. The show initially reminded me of Black Lagoon in terms of the characters and OP and ED. However, it lost that comparison with the continued flatness of the characters. They lacked personality, growth, relatibility. The child soldier, Jonah, aged physically throughout the show but did not appear to age physically. Koko, the loco arms dealer became boring and the revelation of her grand scheme was underwhelming at best.
It glossed over familial type relationships even in ruthless gun squads but didn’t go much further. There was plenty of silly antics that added little to the story. I wouldn’t have minded it being a little more serious. It tried to be philosophical about the needless wars humans wage against each other but fell short. Better to just stick to the first season and not bother with
It seems I failed to think of the people in my life outside of the internet who do indeed enjoy anime. Not to the extent that I do but will watch it with me. My significant other pointed out that I’ve made him sit and watch TWENTY EPISODES of a show at one time. First, key word: made. Haha. Second, I’ve never had him watch twenty in a row. Maybe 10. Maybe. Not to mention, he falls asleep! Then he doesn’t have discussions with me later. He doesn’t willingly ask to watch shows. But he’s right, he will sit with me so I won’t binge alone.
After that post, another friend text me to say that I also had him and I wasn’t alone. My harem anime loving friend. But here’s the thing, they are both male. Maybe I should have been more in depth in the previous post and specified no female friends. I have posted before about anime (blogging in particular) seeming to be a male hobby with many popular series catering to that demographic. It’s possible it’s a topic that needs to be rehashed. The paucity of the female perspective. It is not that females are completely ignored, there are genres that pander to females. It’s also noticeable at cons that females are a large part of the Fandom. It’s just male voices are more vociferous.
On this end, I’m working on finding more friends with similar interests. Stay tuned.